ruined for the ordinary, as good as dead.

For me, lately, life’s been tough.  

All that I have been created to be and the things that I was created to do, what I feel I have been promised is still unseen.  Life seems uncertain.  My feelings and emotions seem to run crazy…  I am realizing that I hate waiting

My uncertainty is however forcing me to fix my eyes upon Jesus, and allow Him to prove Himself faithful to me.  Through this process, I have seen more of the face of Jesus than I ever thought he’d show me. He’s challenged me, encouraged me, and increased my love for Him and for others.  He’s been changing me from the inside out. He’s ruined me for the ordinary.  

Now it came to pass after these things that God tested Abraham, and said to him, “Abraham!”
And he said, “Here I am.” 
Then He said, “Take now your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.” 
So Abraham rose early in the morning and saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him, and Isaac his son; and he split the wood for the burnt offering, and arose and went to the place of which God had told him.  Then on the third day Abraham lifted his eyes and saw the place afar off.  And Abraham said to his young men, “Stay here with the donkey; the lad and I will go yonder and worship, and we will come back to you.” 
So Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Isaac his son; and he took the fire in his hand, and a knife, and the two of them went together.  But Isaac spoke to Abraham his father and said, “My father!” 
And he said, “Here I am, my son.” 
Then he said, “Look, the fire and the wood, but where is the lamb for a burnt offering?” 
And Abraham said, “My son, God will provide for Himself the lamb for a burnt offering.” So the two of them went together. 
Then they came to the place of which God had told him. And Abraham built an altar there and placed the wood in order; and he bound Isaac his son and laid him on the altar, upon the wood. And Abraham stretched out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 

Then they came to the place of which God had told him. And Abraham built an altar there and placed the wood in order; and he bound Isaac his son and laid him on the altar, upon the wood.  And Abraham stretched out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 
But the Angel of the LORD called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” 
So he said, “Here I am.” 
And He said, “Do not lay your hand on the lad, or do anything to him; for now I know that you fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son, from Me.” 
Then Abraham lifted his eyes and looked, and there behind him was a ram caught in a thicket by its horns. So Abraham went and took the ram, and offered it up for a burnt offering instead of his son.  And Abraham called the name of the place, The-LORD-Will-Provide;as it is said to this day, “In the Mount of the LORD it shall be provided.” 

Through this past year, I have been mentored by Abraham.  God has brought up so many different “Isaacs” in my life; things that he has asked me to lay down, things He has challenged me to sacrifice.  Abraham has spent the last year teaching me that if I really want to know God, if I really want to serve Him, if I truly desire to accurately reflect His image to others, I must do everything He asks of me.  I must be willing to sacrifice anything… even if it’s something God’s promised.

Abraham was ruined for the ordinary.  In his mind, obeying God wasn’t a choice.  God had obtained Abraham’s devotion.  He had fully trusted, even though Isaac was the personification of his promise.  He was willing to lay him on the altar and slaughter him in a moments notice, if that’s what God asked of him. 

Abraham laid it all down.  All he hoped for, his most prized possession, his future, he gave up with no expections.  He simply loved God and wanted to please Him.  

I am finding that when you see Christ, when you begin to fathom His extravegant, unending love for you, you are transformed, unable to go back to where you were before.  Abraham had this realization.  He knew God’s love and he knew His word to be always true, always complete, always perfect.   

He didn’t hesitate.  

When I choose to lay it all down before God and honestly put Him before and above all else, then God can use me in the extraordinary.  

We were created for significance.

The great thing about God is that He knows us better than we know ourselves.  He not only wrote the owner’s manual to our lives and knows our future,  He created us in the image of Himself.  I can trust Him because He’s the author of my future.  

Sometimes, what we give to God, He actually asks us to plunge in the knife and slaughter it. And sometimes, He eventually gives it back to us, like Abraham was given Isaac.  But- that’s not His point. It’s not what God is most interested in.  He’s interested in the process.   He longs for our hearts–all of it.  

This is the day, the hour, the time I give it all away to You.  I wanna say I’ll go Your way, living my life for something real.  I can’t survive, I can’t go on if I’m without You by my side.  I want to spend eternity with you. 

You’ve turned my world upside down, my life is spinning ’round you now. All of me, all for You. I’ll let my light shine for You, nothing’s gonna stop me now.  I’m living for You. 

My dreams and desires are as good as dead.  Everything else is worthless, compared to knowing Christ.

Your thoughts are higher than mine, Your words are deeper than mine, Your love is stronger than mine, this is no sacrifice, here’s my life.  

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