Yesterday afternoon, I received an e-mail link from a friend of mine, entitled, Healer. Recognizing this as my current favorite song I quickly opened the link, only to discover it’s contents to be nothing short of shocking…
Before I continue any farther on this blog, let me catch some of you up to speed on what I am about to write about:
A couple of months ago I came across a video posted on youtube highlighting a man named Michael (Mike) Guglielmucci, telling his story of his two year battle with cancer, his faith and trust in the Lord and introducing Healer, a powerful song God had given him after he had learned of his cancer. Mike had been traveling around proclaiming the power of Christ to thousands and thousands, inspiring them to press on, to believe in the power of Christ. He had just recorded Healer with Hillsong Live and it was to be released on their newest album, This is Our God. It was an amazing story of faith, and Healer was an amazing anthem of the Power of God.
Yesterday, I learned that Mike’s amazing testimony was merely a fictitious story. One he created to help cover up his 15 year battle with pornography. Mike had lied to his family, to his fellow pastors, his friends, he had lied to the thousands. I was utterly dumbfounded. How could this have happened? How could he have lived like this for so long?
As I have pondered and re-pondered Mike’s newly told confession, I find my world slightly rocked. I feel sick, and mad, and sad, and humbled all at the same time.
Mike had incredible influence. He is incredibly gifted. He spoke to thousands, giving his false testimony. He told of his aggressive form of cancer, and the healing power of the Blood of Christ…for two years. His song Healer became the anthem of thousands who declared that “Nothing is impossible” for God… what now?
I am being reminded that our sin doesn’t just destroy us, it eats away at others as well.
How does Mike’s sin effect others? How has it tampered with the Faith of others? What kind of distrust has it created? What kind of doors has it opened for the enemy? How has it set back the advancement of the Kingdom of God? As I ask myself these questions, I am once again sad, mad and sick.
If anyone of you is without sin let him be the first to throw a stone…
What about my sin? How has my disobedience effected others? How has my rebellion and lies tampered with the faith of others? How have my cover ups and lies created distrust? What kind of doors have I opened? How have I set back the Kingdom of Christ? These are scary questions.
As I find myself questioning my motives, and re-evaluating my life, and the consequences of my actions, I discover that my feelings of disgust are not towards Mr. Guglielmucci. He’s human. Like myself, he makes mistakes… I find myself utterly disgusted with the Devil. I find myself livid that he has the power to tamper with our lives, and I find myself appalled that we give Him the authority to do so.
It would be easy to place all of the blame on Mike. It would be easy to just be disgusted with him, to excommunicate him from the Christian community, and to send him e-mails and letters letting him know of all his sins. It would be the easiest to look past our own sins, and just blame “people like Mike.” Yet, don’t we all sin? Haven’t we all fallen short of the Glory of God?
Mike’s just more visible. And unfortunately, he messed up… big time. But, he’s not beyond the grace, Love and forgiveness of Jesus Christ. He isn’t Loved less simply because his sin looks more dirty to us. To God, maybe Mike’s in just the right place. Broken. Humbled. Alone. Maybe Mike will finally begin to understand that yes, God can be his Healer, if Mike would only allow Him. Maybe Mike’s song was prophetic to His spiritual journey with Christ.
If anything, this has been a humbling couple of days for me. It has caused me to look inward, and upward. It has shown me how my decisions don’t really just effect me… my sins have the potential to set back thousands. When my pride gets in the way, when I begin to think only of myself and focus only on how to make me feel good, I run the risk of seriously damaging others, as well as myself. That’s why humility is so important. It keeps eyes on Jesus and off of self. It keeps us as people who build up Christ’s kingdom, rather than people who get caught up in advancing their own.
Mike, you’re in my prayers. My heart has been heavy. May you begin to understand the surpassing greatness and Love of the One who created you. May you get to know Christ as your Healer, may you begin to understand the truths you wrote about, for nothing is impossible for Him, He holds your world is His hands.
Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself. Galatians 6:1