He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.
Wait patiently for him…
That’s not easy for me to do.
I was reading in Psalms this evening and this phrase stood out… it’s as if God was trying to tell me something…
I’m one of those people who works really hard to get all her ducks in a row. Once I know what I want, I don’t like waiting around. I work hard. I like to see results. When I have to wait, I am often not at all patient.
Over the past couple of years, I have been on a journey trying to discover what my giftings are, and how God is calling me to use them. I have tried several different things, hoping to find my niche (i.e. bible college, moving to Hawaii…), and although all were wonderful experiences, they left me still, well…antsy.
This past Summer, God made it quite clear to me what is next (to be announced when it becomes “official”). I am excited. I am ready to go, and to serve, and to get my hands dirty. But- it’s not quite time. I have worked to get all my ducks in a row, and now there just sitting there… waiting.
Although some days the waiting drives me CRAZY, I am trying my best to trust that God knows exactly what He is doing. It is in times like this where I am reminded that His timing and mine are often completely different. And as I look back at the last couple years of my life, I am so thankful of the ways he’s shown up and proven himself faithful.
Unfortunately, this is a lesson I have not learned yet. Often, I still pout when I don’t get my way; still trying to take my life into my own hand and manipulate my situation to get exactly what I think I want or need. My prayer is that I would learn to fully trust God, and wait for Him to bring exactly what He has promised. May I truely understand that His timing is so much better than mine!
Hopefully I get better at this!